Today's word: Fall
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There is a chill in the air and it feels a bit like fall. The heat has been turned back on as warmth is needed in this home of mine. My husband is gone for several weeks playing Army and I miss being able to wrap myself in his loving arms for the warmth he provides.
I'm afraid the warm summer months will skip on by. Fall will be here all too soon. Then will come winter which brings us to this looming deployment. It will be his first deployment—our first deployment. If I allow myself to spend too much time thinking about what the time apart will be like all I want to do is fall on my bed and cry. Can we skip over all those months instead?
Before my husband left he provided instructions on keeping up with our yard. Quite honestly though, I can't seem to summon up the strength to do it all. I fear everything will fall apart.
Our home is left undone. A maid has been called. It's the first time I've ever called a maid.
My Graffiti Summer challenge has me focused on other things. My mind is always three steps ahead of me wondering where next I should be. Many things are falling to the side, but I hope and I pray that my heart and soul is where God is calling it to be, bringing a ray of light—bringing Christ—to those who have fallen on harder times.
As David writes in Psalm 55:22, I will cast my cares on the Lord and take comfort in knowing He will sustain me. He will not let me fall.
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Would you stop on by and read more about this Graffiti Summer journey I'm on? You can catch up on my posts here.
Thinking of you. Looking forward to catching up on your posts from Graffiti.
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ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing your heart. I can't imagine what it must be like to be married to an enlisted man. My heart and gratitude goes out to you and your family as you shoulder the burden of our nation for so many of us. May God bless you in this new season of your life and remember to let His Word by a light into your path...just one day at at a time, especially as you count the days until your husband's return.
Sarah - visiting from FMF :)
Thank you for your kind words Sarah. They brought warmth to me on a day when it really was needed. Blessings, Beth.
DeleteMy heart goes out to you. I don't know what this "fall" feels like. I pray it won't be as hard as it could be. Lord, have mercy.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Lisa.
DeleteBeth,
ReplyDeletePraying for you during this period of absence from your hubby. It takes a special woman to serve as a military wife! Do you know where his deployment will be to? God bless you, as you have a lot on your plate, you still reach out to serve others! You are special my friend!! Love and ((hugs)), Bev
Bev, your words...just seeing you here...always warms my heart. My husband will be going to Afghanistan. Lots of praying will be taking place. Thank you for your friendship.
DeleteMuch love and (((hugs))),
Beth
As a guard wife facing an upcoming deployment (next year) as well, I know what you're feeling. If you ever need anything -- someone to ask questions of, someone to cry to, someone to just sit and listen to you... please know that I'm here. Our last deployment was in Fall'08. It feels like forever ago, but the pain and tears and loneliness are still so very fresh for me. The Lord will sustain you! My friend, Katie, at http://www.mrandmrsfoster.com, is in the middle of a deployment now and is doing a bucket list to pass the time and focus on bettering herself while he's gone. Another army wife at http://www.marryingthearmy.com, just wrote a post on Wednesday about running through deployment. She spent the entire separation doing races - half-marathons, etc - all over the country. It was God's blessing to her in that she got to see beautiful places and meet amazing people and create some wonderful memories. The key really is to focus on the positives and the blessings that God can bestow on you during this time. It's best not to wallow in the self pity or loneliness for too long (it's not healthy for you and can be dangerous for him if he's worried about how you're coping.) That being said, it is absolutely okay and good to miss him. It's good to cry when you need to (even before he leaves!) and it's essential to be open and honest with God when your faith is shaken and you wonder whether he's abandoned you (you may not go through that, but I did, and God sent some amazing people into my life to help secure my faith). Sorry for the long comment, I just really felt that these needed to be said, that you needed a hug. Please feel free to email me if you ever need anything -- heartsonguard at gmail :) Hang in there!!!
ReplyDeleteApril, if you peak back in...THANK YOU so much for your amazing support here. I will be emailing you soon. Blessings, Beth.
DeleteI love how you used multiple meanings of fall: the season, things falling completely apart, things falling to the side for a while, God sustaining against a fall. Nicely done! Visiting from 5MF and your comment on my post.
ReplyDeleteThank you for stopping in for your kind comment. Blessings, Beth.
DeleteDear Beth
ReplyDeleteI am sorry to hear that you are going through a hard time at the moment! Yes, life is not easy with one's husband being away for such long times! Don't condemn yourself for hiring help. We all know how much we can and cannot do. Look after yourself, dear one!
Blessings
Mia
Oh thank you Mia. I needed your words. I'm looking forward to this maid simply helping me catch up. I know sometimes extra hands are just needed.
DeleteBlessings to you,
Beth
Thank you for your sacrifices and your husbands service for our country. It is amazing how when we fall He sustains us, thank you for your words!
ReplyDeleteThank you, Rachel. I appreciate you stopping in. It's nice to *meet* you. Blessings, Beth.
DeleteSuch good writing...the best is when we're vulnerable. Thanks to your husband for his service. We have dear a dear friend being deployed in a few weeks for the first time and it is filled with emotions. I'm Beth from Simply Remind Me...we've got something special with simple Beth's huh? Saw you on FMF. Blessings to you and your family, Beth!
ReplyDeleteOh Beth... I'd say we do have something special with simple and Beth. Love it! I will be praying for your friend. My heart and prayers are always with our military and their families.
DeleteBlessings to you,
Beth
Oh Beth...
ReplyDeleteWe do need to connect soon...to pray, to dream, to minister to each other. God will sustain you and although the Fall will come, His mercies are new every morning and every season.
May God touch your family and bring glory to Him in mighty ways.
Blessings,
Angie
Angie, I can't wait to meet. Thank you for your kind words.
DeleteCasting your cares on Him and trusting Him to sustain you...it's the best place to be even if it's not always easy. Thank you for this honest, open post. Prayers that God will hold you close during this time of separation. Blessings. :)
ReplyDeleteThank you Mel for your kind words and prayers. Blessings to you, Beth.
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