Saturday, March 24, 2018

Love or Fear

Source: Scripture Pictures

Hello friends. Remember me? The one who at one time wrote semi-regularly in this place. I am not sure how to jump back in after almost a year since my last post. Much has happened since those All Together Lovely days I last told you about.

Shall I catch you up? Our family was busy in the second half of 2017.

  • Hubs gave me my wished for Turquoise table (May 2017)
  • Hubs and I launched a new small group through our church (July 2017)
  • Our youngest son got married (September 2017)
  • Hubs and I launched a full home remodel project (September 2017)
  • Our oldest son got engaged and then soon after they were married (November 2017)
  • Our youngest son and his wife announced they will welcome their first child (our first grandchild) in June of 2018 ---- it's a girl!
  • Hubs deployed (technically considered a mobilization) to Germany (December 2017)

Those are the highlights. Basically, they are the highlights which appeared on the back of our New Year's card. I made the decision to stop doing Christmas cards a few years ago and instead do New Year's cards. Why? Well, it eliminates an item from my to-do list during that oh so busy time of year and because I find it lovely when one more card appears in your mailbox a couple weeks after all the Christmas cards top arriving so I thought others might think so too.

Shall I catch you up on happenings in the first three months of 2018? The list isn't quite as long as it's only been three months.

  • Hubs is still in Germany (enter sad face)
  • Our new small group is AWESOME. Doing life together with people is challenging but I truly adore them. God uses them to bless me in unending ways.
  • Our eldest son and his wife moved to Nevada (his new duty station) and bought their first home.
  • Our youngest son and his wife bought their first home. They live in Wisconsin.
  • We finished our home remodel project. As many have told me, and I admittedly love to hear, it's Joanna Gaines like. Seriously, it's beautiful!! I can't believe this house is mine.

Shall I end here? Or should I actually tell you why this post is titled, "Love or Fear"? I could likely write a separate blog post on each new happening in 2018 but we will assume those are yet to come (if I actually keep up with this writing thing).

So love or fear? I am often late to the party but this past week I started listening to Emily Freeman's podcast series, "The Next Right Thing." She already has 28 episodes in this series so yes; I am way late to the party.

Anyways... her second podcast is titled, "Do This Before Every Hard Decision." And the "this" she says to do is to ask yourself, is your decision being led by love or by fear?

I'm not completely sure why I have decided to start here after many months of silence. I could start by telling why I chose PRAYER as my One Word for 2018. I could try to tell you why I was quick to say yes to my husband leaving again. Or I could tell you about a recent decision to try to live simpler. Yet, Emily's question struck a chord. Maybe because the question is one I could go back and ask to the different decisions just mentioned.

I have been wrestling with the need to make another decision and my response has leaned towards saying no.

Ya'll, I probably need to back track here as before landing on Emily's podcast I began reading a book on prayer (because it's my One Word). The first strategic prayer the author addresses is praying for our passion. My passion? It is stolen from Bible Study Fellowship... "To magnify God and mature His people as they cultivate a deeper relationship with Him."

In my own words, my passion is to lead women in growing in His word and in a relationship with Him. Oh how fear can lead me to not pursue this passion though.

But our passions are a gift from God. He has given me this desire and He is the one who fans it into flame inside of me. And the whole "fan into flame" has stuck a chord with me too.

"For this reason I remind you to fan into flame the gift of God, which is in you through the laying on of my hands." 2 Timothy 1:6

Am I a bit all over the place with this post? It would be so much easier to sit across the table from you to share my heart on all these things. You and me at a table with a cup of coffee would be altogether lovely. Can we, please?

All this to say, on the decision I need to make... love is beginning to take more of the lead. All the fears which had me leaning towards no are valid fears (in my opinion) yet, "perfect love casts out fear (1 John 4:18)."

I need to mention I often fear misusing a scripture verse. There is so much I leave left unsaid or undone out of fear. So here I am letting go of fear and trusting God by attempting to pursue another passion He has given me and just maybe He is asking me to "fan into flame."


I shall end here, friends. It was lovely to visit with you again. I have missed you.



  1. You did it! You shared your heart and words. What a blessing! Emily Freeman’s podcast is one of my favorites. I usually listen while I’m walking but then wish I had something to write down all the goodness.

    1. Yes, that whole wanting to listen while I can write down all the goodness is something I struggle with too. The car is the best option for me but I also listen while I work out too. Or course, neither option allows me to write stuff down. Thanks for stopping by, Mary. (((hugs)))

  2. I love your heart and your words. I'm so glad you wrote. Looking forward to more!

    1. Love you too, sweet friend. I'm so sorry I have not been good at staying in touch. (((hugs)))

  3. I’m so glad you’re back! I’ve missed you!

    1. So good to see you here, Elizabeth. Thank you for stopping by. Blessings.

  4. Just seeing your name pop up on my screen made me all kinds of happy, Beth! And I'm with you ... Emily Freeman's podcast is the only one I listen to regularly and each and every occasion always leaves me full and satisfied, rich and stretched.

    Fear is a harsh taskmaster and a lousy platform for decision making, isn't it. I love 2 Timothy 1:7 - 'For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.'

    Blessings to you, friend, no matter how the Lord leads you forward. I hope we get to hear all about the direction He's giving ...


    1. I remain ever so grateful for you and the encouragement and love you always extend. Thanks, Linda. (((hugs)))

  5. How delightful to see your name pop up this week, sweet friend! As for "being all over the place" isn't that exactly how we woman are when catching up over a cup of coffee? I'm excited to hear all your news - a baby in June - that is just perfection! (June babies are the best, lol) Whatever decision it is you're trying to make, seeking God's will for the answer is definitely the road to success! I will be praying that He gives you the wisdom and discernment necessary for the best choice. Blessings!

  6. I can not express how happy it made me to see you writing again! You and your posts are a blessing and I enjoy the "all over the place" - that is my life! I first connected with you in the early days of my husbands deployment in 2014 (his 6th, my first). Here I am again, blessed by your writing and yes, he's deployed again :-) God is GOOD. I am praying for you and your sweet family.


    1. Hello Jenn. It's so good to hear from you. Thank you for your words of encouragement and for stopping by. Oh these deployments... I know it's not easy being separated from them for such a long period of time. I pray you are able to have good communications and I pray for his safety and for God to be your comfort and strength. Please stay in touch!!


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