Friday, July 12, 2013

Whisper My Name.



I woke this morning and went through my usual morning routine of preparing for coffee to brew and then taking a shower. Once I have a cup of coffee in hand it's time to meet Jesus. Lately I have begun my morning time by turning to my Jesus Calling devotional. I'm lost in the first two sentences for today's reading.

"Whenever you feel distant from Me, whisper My Name in loving trust. This simple prayer can restore your awareness of My Presence." ~ Jesus Calling

I read those words over and over again. My heart is aching for His presence.

You see, last night my husband and I had an argument. It was rather trivial, many times they are, but instead of not letting the sun go down while still angry (Ephesians 4:26) we went to bed angry with one other. I'm the one to blame. We argued over a new fence in our yard when there are so many reasons to express gratitude for that fence.

This morning I felt a little like Moses wanting God to reveal Himself to me. I needed to see Him. He did not feel present.

My morning time bounced from Jesus Calling to trying to park myself somewhere in His word. I had just finished reading from Galatians. Someone recently shared words from Hosea so I tried going there. He was still not revealing Himself to me so I turned to Ephesians sure I would find Him there. I got as far as Ephesians 1:4.

Even as [in His love] He chose us [actually picked us out for Himself as His own] in Christ before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy (consecrated and set apart for Him) and blameless in His sight, even above reproach, before Him in love. (AMP)

I'm not feeling all that holy and blameless.

My husband finally wakes. The silence between us continues and every part of me is aching for God. Please God, reveal yourself to me. Be present.

Before I depart for work I walk up to this man who has been my husband for almost twenty-three years. My eyes search his wondering if this silence can be broken. He walks up to me with his eyes now searching mine. He wraps his arms around me and holds me close. It was then, right at that moment, when God revealed Himself. His grace once again covered us and gave us another day to learn to love more like Him.

As I made my morning commute to work, the words from Jesus Calling came to my mind again.

"Whenever you feel distant from Me, whisper My Name in loving trust. This simple prayer can restore your awareness of My Presence." ~ Jesus Calling

He was present. He's always present. All I needed to do was whisper His name.

I'm joining Lisa-Jo Baker again for Five Minute Friday. Lisa has created such a wonderful community where many others come together and write for five minutes on a prompt she provides. It's a beautiful thing. Today's prompt is: Present. God works in amazing ways.
He is always present!


15 comments :

  1. I read that one this morning too and it struck me ... I started singing quietly to myself, "Jesus, Jesus, Jesus ... sweetest name I know." :) Blessings to you, Beth! ~sharon

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  2. Such comfort in this post, thank you.

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  3. Beth, this is beautiful. Thank you for being so open and honest. (Love the Five Minute Friday community!).

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  4. Thank you so much for sharing this post!

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  5. These words resonate with me: "His grace once again covered us and gave us another day to learn to love more like Him." With HIS grace, the hard work of marriage would be impossible!

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  6. Oh dear friend, love this. I was living this VERY thing out two night ago. Then yesterday afternoon. Funny how the enemy loves to attack those relationships that can ruin us quickly. Can warp our hearts. Can ruin our days. Can bring us away from where He wants us. Bless you for this reminder of our Present HE is with us. Every moment. Thank you. Love, love.

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  7. Beth,
    What a wonderful way to call on the presence of the Lord - to simply whisper His name. Sometimes we make it way too complicated! Thanks, as always, for sharing from your heart! ((Hugs)) Bev

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  8. Dear Beth
    I was in quite a similar situation the day before yesterday, and after I apologized to my husband and God, I still felt so guilty. Our Lord then told me that I am the one who needs to forgive myself!
    Blessings XX
    Mia

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  9. So honest and beautiful Words, Beth! He is always by our side - that is one thing that keeps us going - when we fall or stumble, He walks beside us ... Thank you for your encouragement and lighting up the World around you!

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  10. Love this. What a testimony to marriage. Thanks for sharing, especially because I've been there more times than I care to admit.

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  11. Wonderful words filled with grace.

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  12. Love this my sweet friend. I don't have that devotional yet. I must think about getting it. Yes, He is but a whisper away!

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  13. Love this and oh my you speak the words from my heart, so when are we going to meet?? love you!!

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